Archive for March, 2008

Well,

Posted in Uncategorized on March 31, 2008 by chachisays

Here i sit yet again, i have the blog box open, my fingers are moving across the keyboard. They are taking letters and forming sentences, paragraphs, complete and incomplete thoughts alike.
So what is it that im doing, am i entertaining the world…prolly not. Am i angry and this is where i come to vent…..prolly not. what i do is sit here and randomly write things that are on my mind.

W.O.W = digital crack. plain and simple.

if you start playing it and you let it draw yourself in youll be lost in a brightly colored world filled with adventure and mayhem. then before you know it two hours have gone by. Oh well, who cares. its only two hours. a bit later you look at the clock… 4 hours have gone by….nice. this game consumes you, sucks you in and keeps you there. Now when you are absolutely forced to leave the game i.e. work, school. You find yourself fiending for it trying to figure out when you can play it next and for how long.

and i wouldnt have it any other way.

so to everyone that thinks that w.o.w is bad for you i say piss off you bloody wankers….. at least im not doing drugs, hurting people, or watching porn.

You keep your addictions ill keep mine.

Lmao

Tommorow

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See Look,

Posted in Uncategorized on March 27, 2008 by chachisays

So as I sit in a park in beautiful Pittsburgh listening to the radio off of my cell phone typing this into my blackberry, so I don’t forget any thoughts from today. I sip my venti mocha frappachino.

The fact that this particular phrase has graced the screen typed by me is amazing. The last time I walked into a star bucks to do anything other then wait for someone to buy a drink has been 5 plus years. Huh. Yet here we are with my drink and my blackberry and I laugh at myself. Why you may ask, well I guess it starts when I decided that I did not want to give into major companies that were springing up and putting ma and pop shops out of business.

This goes for everything music, coffee… Etc. Well looks like that’s changed. Everything I do in life mostly evolves around corporatism. I work for a corporation I love. I use my laptop that runs on Intel and Microsoft products. I guess I’ve looked at this all wrong. This isn’t selling out. This is not giving into big business. This is surviving comfortably. There’s no need to yell sell out when I see someone driving a hummer, or SUV for any reason. Because they too are not selling out…

They too are surviving comfortably.

On to the next topic of discussion: the park at the pointe, this thing has been closed for a year or so thus far and today as I wait for my smelly but reliable transportation to show up. What do I see? A bunch of people walking around a closed park with some local officials. So let me get this straight my tax dollars go to pay to have this already beautiful park redone and I don’t even get to go in… that is unless I wish to scale the ten foot fence, then run from police when they see me doing this. Not fucking fair. Where else is one suppose to go to enjoy his coffee and type a blog.

Well before all of this happened I was walking through downtown Pittsburgh and realized that im not afraid of it at all. I can successfully walk through the city past drug dealers and thugs and bums and not even flinch. This is prolly a bad thing. I mean ill most likely get shot by standing up for myself but you know what…. To die would be the greatest adventure. To explore the unknown and not be able to speak about it or tell anyone that doesn’t know about it.

What is out there? What is on the other side? Is there another side? There are people that claim to know, but how can you ask someone that you cannot no longer speak too.

But to get back to the point at hand, I found a quote etched into a sidewalk that really started me thinking.

Life is either a great adventure or Nothing – Helen Keller

Wow, just wow. Someone that faced much looked at life as if there was a possibility that life was a big bunch of nothing. Amazing to me it is. I mean someone who overcame so much flat out said that it literally could’ve just been a waste of time. Of course she didn’t say it like that but that’s basically what she meant.

Where do I get off complaining that life is giving me shit when someone like that can over come so much and just shrug life off as being possibly nothing. Yet im here and I complain that my car died or people don’t like honesty. Makes you think.

Well, screw that noise. Life is a great adventure. And damn it I’m going to live every minute of it.

So I talked to a great friend yesterday, I explained to him that I felt that it was time for me to finally grow up. Not go out looking for instant fun and then forgetting about it the next day. I need to stop hitting and quitting. I need to stop looking for instant gratification. Etc etc etc….. so as I sit here and think about my life I realize that it’s time for me to grow up and finally start thinking about settling down. Now don’t get me wrong I know that just going out finding a girl and being like that’s it for life isn’t going to be easy. Its not an instant thing, its something that one must work at and then decide when the time is right, that hey, this is the one. This is the one that im with. This is the one that I will die beside.

Well im not saying that the search is going to start soon, but it is something ive thought about and I know that its going to be a long and treacherous journey. This is no try, Do or Do not.

I think I have to go kill some spammers now.

Until Tommorow.

Peace.

So….

Posted in Uncategorized on March 26, 2008 by chachisays

So, yea. You sit there thinking that nothing could ever get possibly worse and then blammmm
you get hit with a new and improved shiny huge pile of shit.

this is the type of shit that you see on infomercials, just for three easy payments of making you suffer a lil bit more this product can be yours!!!!!

all major credit cards accepted we will eve accept cash on delivery!

Well that happens to be enough sarcasm for now. So i wake up later then i wanted too but eh it happens i get showered and dressed for work, grab a mt dew and i head out the door.

I get my car ready, jump in and start going, make a right turn hear a loud clunking noise. press the gas and my car doesn’t go. The engine revs, the car does everything its suppose to do when you hit the gas, except on major thing…. it doesnt fucking go anywhere like its suppose too. i manage to get it off the main road and put it in park and it starts drifting backwards.

hmmm, not good. tow truck shows up, takes me and the car home and there it sits, waiting…….

waiting…..
waiting for me to just call someone to take it out to the pasture and fucking shoot it.

it was a great car i liked it. it was a piece of shit but a piece of shit that had potential that it never got to see.

at least i got to take the obligatory im sitting in my car so ill take a picture for myspace pic. Thatll be up later today.

i took it yesterday just in time i guess.

Wow, now its back to the drawing board to find a new car.

However, i will be playing wow again later today, maybe itll take me out of this world.

Thats all.
See you tommorow.

hmm

Posted in Uncategorized on March 25, 2008 by chachisays

So i’ve come to find out recently that alot of things that i thought were true are not true. Now theres alot of things that im not going to post here because frankly its not anyones business but mine and those that i feel are lucky enough to be included in my circle of trust.

Honesty does not get you anywhere in this life. This is one of the things that i’ve learned. Let me elaborate. You tell someone the truth, thinking oh ok they will understand. People want to know the truth. They yearn to know the truth. They flat out demand to know the truth. However not to sound to cliche here, People honestly cannot handle the fucking truth.
You tell them the truth no matter how it makes them feel, because you feel that its better then lying to them. but NO, you tell people the truth and the first thing they do is automatically assume that your lying! and why do they do this? they do this because the truth is not what they wanted to hear.
they want to hear whatever makes them happy. Not whats true.

I dont know where im going in this life, however i know that i will not be lying to people just to make them fucking happy.

If i dont like you. Then you will know that i dont like you.
If i think you are someone that i want as a friend. Then you will know this.
Life is too short to have to tiptoe around just because people are too sensitive.
Im sorry if people have gotten hurt in the past few days by things i have said or done. Im not sorry for things i have told people because its the fucking truth.

Next, Dont fucking lie to me for most of my life then expect me to automatically accept the fact that the things i knew for 24 years are false. Not gonna happen, not ever going to fucking happen.

I honestly dont know where im heading in life. I wake up and live each day for each day. I’m too young and too unexperienced to spend my time here worrying about what happened when i was young or whats going to happen when im thirty.
Its 5 pm in Pittsburgh, Pa. Im sitting in an office at a desk ive earned, looking at work responsiblities that ive earned and as i do this i realize that so far ive done pretty well doing the things the way i do them. So if you dont like that, or ive said something to piss you off, or if you think im asshole or you are just pissed at me in general in the words of Tech N9ne: “If you mad at me, Sorry and Shit.”

Peace im out
See you tommorow.